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Thankful Grateful Blessed

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I typically end my night with a variant of the following prayer: God thank you for allowing me another day. I’m unworthy of Your goodness but thankful because You’ve given me more time to get right. If it’s Your will that I see tomorrow I give thanks for that as well – if it’s not I ask forgiveness for all my wrongdoings and acceptance into Your kingdom, forevermore.

It was of His will that I awakened this morning and He placed some gentle signs of encouragement within my senses to let me know my prayers were heard.

The birds were singing a beautiful tune which indicated a new day. The sweet sound penetrated my hearing prior to my eyes opening – prior to the sun shining. A new day means new opportunities, and the celebration had already begun.

Raindrops were taping against my window, signaling that the wrongs of yesterday were washed away – today I have an opportunity to let right into my space, and return it to the atmosphere.

The wind was blowing through my window and circulating throughout my place of slumber. The place where my thoughts run rampant was being purified. I sat on my bed for a moment and simply inhaled the fresh air, filling my lungs – fueling my energy.

In the distance I heard the sound of an ambulance rushing to provide aide. In that moment I was reminded that while it was His will that I see today someone else – somewhere else did not receive the same fate.

I’m thankful for my today, with senses intact. I’m thankful for the birds, the raindrops, the wind, and the sirens. I’m thankful for new opportunities for myself and all who read this blog. I’m thankful for those that don’t know or don’t choose to support my thought sharing process. I’m thankful for those that will find fresh wind written within my words and gain new strength inside themselves. I’m thankful for family, friends, and enemies – all of which provide a source of encouragement. I’m thankful, I’m grateful, I’m blessed!

Stand

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“Tell me, how do you handle the guilt of your past?
Tell me, how do you deal with the shame?
And how can you smile while your heart has been broken
And filled with pain?” – Donnie McClurkin

This became one of my hype songs a few years ago when I was finding my way out of a situation. I was heavily in the midst of a “this is your fault” moment and punishing myself with a “you deserve it because” mindset when the song caught my attention.

I didn’t notice tears had began to stream down my face – I never turned the sound down but everything around me went silent – Other than a gentle rock back and forth I was unable to move.

In its entirety the song lasts approximately five minutes and twenty three seconds, that’s how long it took to cleanse myself of the hurt and pain I had been holding onto for too long.

In that moment I was dealing with “a” thing but unbeknownst to me a “bunch” of things had merged together and created “that” thing. It’s the “bunch” that I needed to let go of and the strength to do so came to me in the form of a melody.

Let me attempt to explain: have you ever given your best to someone who betrayed you, swore you’d never go through that with anyone else, then found yourself in a similar situation with someone else? – Stand!

Have you ever willingly participated in wrongdoing and came out unscathed but mentally battered? – Stand!

Have you ever lessened your self worth for the approval of someone else? – Stand!

Have you disappointed yourself in thought, word, or action? – Stand!

I look back on “that” thing and I have a testimony to tell (one day). I trust without a doubt that I’d be on a merry-go-round of actions and emotions if that moment had not occurred. I can’t explain why it happened when it did but I’m thankful for the cleansing.

Addiction, adultery, abuse, fornication, neglect, greed, illiteracy, failure to forgive…….. these are some of “the” things that form into “bunches”. These are the things that fester within us, poisoning our ability to love ourselves and others. These are the things we need to purge ourselves of so we can, so our children can, live life richly.

There’s a melody already written that will speak to your “thing”! Until it reaches your hearing, hold on …. or as the lyrics say, Stand!