I took a huge step today, one I’ve yet to speak into the atmosphere. There’s a part of me that believes the right hand should always be ignorant to what the left hand is doing –  there’s another part so accustomed to disappointment that I choose to move in silence rather than explain failure – then there’s the part that simply can’t fathom the changes taking place in my life.

A few years ago every prayer I spoke started with Lord I recognize that I’m unworthy of Your greatness but I thank You for continously blessing a wretch like me. While I know that I’ve made, and will continue to make, mistakes I’ve matured into a different prayer.

It took someone asking “why not you” during a discussion for me to examine why I felt the need to boast about my inadequacies. I’ve done a lot of good throughout my life yet I held myself hostage to the unworthy deeds.

I started giving thanks for the energy to do good and asking for the ability to continue along that journey. While the ways of a wretch forever live within me the behaviors aren’t exercised nor does the desire control me.

It’s rather often that my thoughts revolve around changing my mindset / expanding my way of thinking. That’s because I’ve spent a lifetime convincing myself that I shouldn’t, couldn’t, wouldn’t …. Starting this blog was the first step towards freeing my mind while today’s step elevates my commitment to myself – I can’t wait to publicly share that thought!